I Am A Unicorn

I read a blog just a few weeks ago called, A Blunt And Outspoken Friend Is The Best Friend You Could Ever Have. I shared it everywhere because I am this friend, I wont ever lie to you, something I asked or said to someone else will always make it to your ears from my mouth. I am also the type of friend that though I have that outspoken voice and will not lie to you, I am also the friend that does not judge. We all may have our own voice. I will love you whether you decide to accept my outspoken voice or not. I just ask that you love me the same. Maybe your a vaxxer or a anti-vaxxer, I go here because there is STRONG opinions on this topic. I don't care your direction. I love you because you are my friend and we wouldn't be fit for one another if we were the same. 

I am not one to deny my past, though hairy and I do not bring it up willingly, I have never crawled under a rock when it's been brought up and whom ever had a willingness to try to throw me under the bus, I still love them, because I am who I am because of the person I once was. I am not someone you can bring down to a negative level because I am who I am. I have been told, "she doesn't like you, because..." and moved on within seconds. It is not my duty to please, but to just be respectfully me. Whomever she is, it is likely she has not directly addressed the issue with me because I don't play politics like that. I like you.

"She says you did this to her," most of the time I can explain my actions and get on the same level. Maybe I was wrong, I am not afraid to admit I am human, mistakes are made. When things go unaddressed conflict builds greater than it has to. It is easy for feelings to unintentionally get hurt as women read everything, from the way your face twitched to the way the pitch of your voice changed. Hell, women know what you smelled like before you walked away. 

Was I always this way? Nope. I'll be honest, everything I am today is because of my children. When I gave birth to my first nothing else mattered. That trivial BS was over. What I did to you in the past or what you did to me in the past is no longer a vision of mine. My slate went blank after the birth of my son. I rebuilt the person I am today. How do I know I am this friend? I have been demoted to acquaintance by two friends that couldn't deal with my outspoken blunt personality. 

My friendship stories:

1. I decided to opt out of s maid of honor role because he wasn't the man for her. I am was not the same person I am today when this decision was made. I am positive I could have done it better back then. However, I was still outspoken and wouldn't hold back. This did not mean I didn't love her, in fact, in my mind it meant I loved her even more. I understand I wad hurtful in this experience. Years later, he was not the man for her. 
   
2. A friend held my leg while I gave birth to my son. She comforted me while I watched from her window another woman's vehicle in my driveway spending time with my husband. I never had an voice to say anything about her life our entire friendship, until a lifetime of memories had been made. A few outspoken words led to hurt feelings. 

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In these times I reflect. I can pinpoint where I went wrong. It was my voice. My blunt-outspoken voice. My inability to see past, I will love you friend no matter what your going through, whether you choose to follow my outspoken blunt voice or not. Dear friend, I value your outspoken blunt voice and though I may not choose the direction your voice points, I still love you.